Tag: my sobriety journey

Journal Entry #17: Relationship Sh*t

A lot of things have got me thinking about relationships lately… and my relationship to being in relationships… and my history of attachment issues and glomming onto people who are bad for me. For historical reference: At the oh-so-mature age of 15, I attached myself with a vengeance to the first person to show me any romantic attention ever. I think this is because … Read More Journal Entry #17: Relationship Sh*t

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Journal Entry #16: Probably My Most Confident, Concise Intro Yet!

Hey y’all! Just wanted to jump in and say hello (yet again)! I’m Trish — she/her pronouns, full-time RVer, 9/11 military vet, divorcee, polyamorous, pansexual, kinky, nerdy, overly blunt at times, 2w3 on the enneagram scale, INFJ on the MBTI scale, horribly inept (and perhaps a bit lazy) cook, and UBER protective dog mama. I travel around a bit, but I’ve been calling AZ … Read More Journal Entry #16: Probably My Most Confident, Concise Intro Yet!

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Journal Entry #15: No, I’m NOT F*cking Pregnant, Actually

So this week, my online recovery support group has been talking a lot about how to use nutrition and lifestyle changes to support the body’s healing during the early years of recovery. I’ll be honest, this particular topic of conversation is suuuuuper tough for me in a lot of ways, because the whole concept of “nutrition” is all entangled and enmeshed in my head … Read More Journal Entry #15: No, I’m NOT F*cking Pregnant, Actually

Journal Entry #14: Trish! Trish, Trish, Trish!

So I was out for a walk this morning with my dog-daughter, the inimitable Ms. Betty Boop the Mini-Schnauzer (you can find her at #bettybooptheschnauzer on Instagram), and I saw someone off in the distance walking along the lakefront, strumming a guitar and singing. Sadly, I was not close enough to hear exactly what was being sung, and I never got close enough, because … Read More Journal Entry #14: Trish! Trish, Trish, Trish!

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Journal Entry #13: Another Introduction to Myself

I am a loud-and-proud mega-dork, which is the only explanation I can give to preface the pics I am about to post along with this bit of writing, which are the result of a somewhat craftsy project I attempted after waking up to 6 inches of snow on the ground on a quiet New Year’s Day in the Arizona desert (!!). Me and the … Read More Journal Entry #13: Another Introduction to Myself

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Journal Entry #12: On Things that Terrify Me as Much as They Teach Me

So. Today’s recovery group mantra has me repeating over and over that “my beauty is made in the fire.” And this mantra, while it feels truthful to me… well… meh… that truthfulness has the bitter taste of an ironic sort of slap-in-the-face thing to me. Which kinda sucks, on an emotional level. But it is still probably, overall, one of the cooler and more … Read More Journal Entry #12: On Things that Terrify Me as Much as They Teach Me

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Journal Entry #11: When Every Day STOPS Being a Struggle

So I had a ROUGH, rough, rough emotional night last night, and felt 1,000% overwhelmed due to a bunch of things that were and are completely out of my control (control freak perfectionist here, hi!), and all of the feelings and rawness and things just going WRONG on me — all of that collided in just the right way to crack me open like … Read More Journal Entry #11: When Every Day STOPS Being a Struggle

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Journal Entry #10: The Year of Trish

So here’s the truth. I spent most of 2017 struggling. With a lot of things, really. With EVERYTHING… or at least, it felt like that some days. I was struggling against a divorce process that I didn’t want to be going through (but that was also probably one of the best things that could’ve happened to me as far as my love life goes… … Read More Journal Entry #10: The Year of Trish

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Journal Entry #9: Please Allow Me to Introduce Myself (Again)

So I’m kind of a “challenge-all-social-norms, alternative-lifestyle-embracing” sort of girl, and probably mostly not everyone’s cup of tea. And that’s okay. I actually think my unique blend of quirks and weirdnesses are the exact parts of my personality that drew me to this online recovery support group that I’m a part of now like a homing beacon. And when I first found this community … Read More Journal Entry #9: Please Allow Me to Introduce Myself (Again)

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Journal Entry #8: You Are Here

So… I just last year came out of a painful divorce from a 13+ year live-in relationship, and was financially shell-shocked/traumatized enough from that to not EVER want to be dependent on another person like that again… a situation that ultimately spurred me to finally embrace a lifestyle that I’ve been secretly pining for for quite a while… and so I became a conscious … Read More Journal Entry #8: You Are Here